tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4888234192838655827.post3933053139019404718..comments2019-09-09T02:42:39.315-04:00Comments on appilogue: Getting RealJenellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04798200480777705662noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4888234192838655827.post-12311237274669362632010-09-06T12:38:16.249-04:002010-09-06T12:38:16.249-04:00Wow.. it's almost a relief to hear that you st...Wow.. it's almost a relief to hear that you struggle too ;) I'm always so envious of your progress! I've gained about 25 lbs back since January, and I have been seriously depressed but can't seem to do anything about it.. Congrats on everything ♥ (loveberries)Kanakikehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12289340806733374889noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4888234192838655827.post-1471295685277836322010-06-27T05:42:38.930-04:002010-06-27T05:42:38.930-04:00Thank you so much for sharing. There are so many f...Thank you so much for sharing. There are so many feelings that only an obese person would be familiar with, that you've written out on this entry. You are an inspiration.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4888234192838655827.post-47284416837784332992010-06-22T12:22:09.761-04:002010-06-22T12:22:09.761-04:00I always enjoy your blog, but this post in particu...I always enjoy your blog, but this post in particular gives me a lot to think about. I recently reached my weight-loss goal, and I occasionally find myself thinking I should see if I can lose another ten pounds. Maybe I should work on developing a healthy self concept first, huh?Katehttp://kateo.orgnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4888234192838655827.post-42439622276173659442010-06-22T11:44:47.311-04:002010-06-22T11:44:47.311-04:00Thanks so much for the support everyone. It took a...Thanks so much for the support everyone. It took a lot for me to press the "Publish" button on this post and your positive words mean a lot.<br /><br />Christen - Congrats on getting healthier! I am so humbled that you have found inspiration through my blog. Struggling alone is hard. Bit by bit, it's become easier for me to open up about these personal issues. Bringing them to light and acknowledging the problems we have will certainly help us to deal with them and move on. You're not alone! Feel free to email me if you ever need support.<br /><br />MC: I nodded along to pretty much everything you touched on in this comment. Though life has been busy, I think the real reason I didn't want to post new entries was because I felt like I had nothing helpful to share while sort of spiraling out of control (little did I know that LETTING GO of this control would help me enormously). Please, like I said, be gentle with yourself. Lately, when I find working out to feel like punishment, I just do something else that requires some sort of activity. Instead of exercising as damage control, I've been trying to make exercise into something I can find joy in again (hence the dance classes). Likewise, if I do disappear again (which I hope not to do!) feel free to send me an email if you ever want to talk. I feel like we have very much in common and sometimes communicating these feelings/compulsions helps keep them in perspective. Also: I'm SO glad you like those muffins, too :DJenellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04798200480777705662noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4888234192838655827.post-79231727632081014522010-06-22T02:43:10.421-04:002010-06-22T02:43:10.421-04:00Thank you for posting this! You don't know who...Thank you for posting this! You don't know who I am either. I started reading your logs regularly on PT a few years ago. Almost everyday, I check back on this blog to see if you posted anything new. Funny, because a few days ago I started thinking, hmm, guess she's busy or doesn't want to post anymore.<br /><br />Anyway, back to your new post. I've been able to maintain about a 10 pound weight loss for awhile now (still have 15 more to reach my goal). It's not much, but for me it's a big deal considering how much I've struggled with emotional eating. I binge much much less, but I still do it. I haven't been able to lose the last 15 (despite how active I am) because of that and because of overeating. I've just been able to maintain my weight because of my activity levels and I get back on track and eat "normally" the next days. Sadly, food still continues to fill the voids I have. If that weren't the case, I'd be at my goal.<br /><br />Tonight, I binged on a bunch of things, including 6 of those whole wheat banana blueberry muffins (recipe you posted awhile back. This is like my 5th time to make these! I love them). I'm not sure why I felt compelled to eat...I believe a big reason is that I feel lonely often and then food gives me that fake comfort. It continues to be frustrating. I'll be 24 in 5 weeks, and I'm just sick of continuing to have this struggle with food, body image issues, this extra weight on me that makes me feel unattractive and unworthy. It's become a cycle. Not to mention, I think I probably go extremes with my exercise (6 hours of cardio a week). Yes, I like exercising and I like feeling athletic, but a big reason why I do it is for superficial reasons.<br /><br />I feel like I've made a lot of progress in the last year than I ever have since wanting to lose weight when I was 16/17 years old. But I know I can make even more progress..it's hard.<br /><br />I just want a normal relationship with food. I wish I could go a full week without an binge episode. I wish I could just stick to my calorie goal of 1800-1900 calories...very reasonable, right?!! But the only way I'll ever achieve my goals is by dealing with the underlying reasons...and I'm not sure how to deal with them or at least find another pleasurable activity that gives me the same comfort.<br /><br />Thanks for posting. It makes me feel a bit better than I am not alone in this.MCnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4888234192838655827.post-44884701605778456082010-06-21T21:48:56.040-04:002010-06-21T21:48:56.040-04:00You have no idea who I am, but you inspired me to ...You have no idea who I am, but you inspired me to lose 80 pounds. However, I have gained 30 of those pounds back. This entry made me feel so much better, to know that I'm not alone and to know that I'm not the only one who struggles. Thank you SO much. You have helped me so much.Christenhttp://www.flickr.com/photos/theatercabnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4888234192838655827.post-24590280510543698842010-06-21T15:53:28.340-04:002010-06-21T15:53:28.340-04:00I'm glad you're back, Jenelle. And thank ...I'm glad you're back, Jenelle. And thank you for sharing. This is a crazy journey and we do tend to beat the heck out of ourselves. Thank you for the reminder to be gentler :)Marisa @Loser for Lifehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01872847274087327355noreply@blogger.com