Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Day 25: Ups/Downs

twentyten // 027 // unassuming

I'm going to go out on a limb and post from my heart here. I woke up this morning thinking today would be a relatively calm day compared to the sorts of days I've had thus far this week. I've got a lot on my plate in a lot of different areas of my life right now. Photography, design work, fitness, my 9-5 job, along with the miscellany of day-to-day life such as keeping up with relationships, cooking, commuting, etc got me all wrapped into a big bundle of nerves.

My big struggle lately has been one with the idea of perfection. I am slowly learning that if I am doing a lot of different things, it is most important to do these things consistently well and perhaps not as important to ensure I'm doing them all perfectly. I don't think it's possible and I need to stop feeling guilty for not reaching perfection on a daily basis. Being the best that I can be at something is all that should matter. Right after returning home from a long day and night, however, I was completely lacking the sense to put a thought like this together. Nothing was going right.

My reaction to this a few months ago would be to bake some cookies or muffins to give away, sneakily downing one or two or three before doing so. I'm a notorious stress-baker. Today, however, I popped in the Shred and sweated all my issues out. Shadowboxing never felt so good. Exercise is the perfect "me" time. You are focused and in tune with your body. It is one of the most selfish things you can do. An act of self-love more powerful than any bubble bath or piece of chocolate.

Feeling better after this, I called my parents (whom I talk about a lot on here) to chat about some good news I had received this evening right after my work out. My dad had good news, too. He went ahead and informed me of a discussion he had with a nutritionist he's been talking to on the phone. My father is diabetic and has to closely monitor his blood sugar, etc. The nutritionist grilled him on his activity level and diet. My father told him about how he and my mom started the Shred, so they are effectively working out twenty minutes every day. Cardio, strength, abs. He also told him about what sorts of food he's been eating. Lean proteins, whole grains, veggies. The nutritionist was impressed and my dad went ahead and told him what I had done and how I had sort of passed on what knowledge I picked up along the way onto him and my mom. The nutritionist told Dad that these changes he's made in regards to his health could very well have saved his life and told him to pass the message on to me.

I had no words. Regardless of how fantastic the news I had received earlier was, nothing could possibly be better and more humbling than this. My only reaction was tears (which has been my reaction to most things this evening, both good and bad.) My dad boasted about his blood sugar reading after dinner tonight. He is in control of his disease. I am ecstatic.

Life is short and we should really live it out to the best of our abilities. We should be good to ourselves first. Everything else good seems to follow.


Michelle said...

Thank you for sharing this.

Thank you for reminding me that exercise is my key. I put it off today and then binged tonight. I felt terrible...but I am getting there to be honest. 1 week string..which is SO good for me :)

To help someone, esp. your Dad, is amazing.

What a gift.

Anonymous said...

i'm just a lurker who found your blog randomly - just want to let you know how inspiring you are! i read your blog when i feel down about eating/exercise, and it's a constant reminder that i need to do these things for ME.

all the best from australia.

Jenelle said...

Michelle - Keep up the exercise. I really love the positive messages you're putting out there on your blog.

Anonymous in Australia - I can't tell you how much your comment means to me. Knowing someone is out there are reading my blog helps keep me going when I lose sight of my goals. Thanks so much.

zeynep said...

Hello there, I found you on flickr and it was a coincidence - then I found your blog and started following you on twitter. That is because you are really a great inspiration and some kind of a muse who entered my life in such a critical period..I am sick of gaining and losing weight and to become a woman who does not like herself, who cannot even look at herself in the mirror.. Sunday is the day for me..I will be entering a very special period and I will go ahead with the inspiration I got from you!! thank you for being over there and for sharing your words and photos. Please keep it up. Nice to meet you :) love from Istanbul.

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